The dreaming and planning was a labor or love for me because as each of us confessed to one another, we'd rather serve than be a conference participant. For my team mates I'm sure it's because they've always had the Spiritual gift of service so it all comes naturally. Not so for me!
A decade ago, I was totally void of the spiritual gift of service! That's right, I'm confessing, I'm a woman who 16 years ago after taking one of those "Spiritual Gifts" inventories found out God did NOT give me the gift of Mercy or Service. In my mind, it might as well have said I was soulless!
Imagine my shame and horror as I shared my Spiritual gifts with a table full of other females. All the other women listed Mercy or Service in their top three. I, on the other hand being the spiritual freak, topped out with Encouragement, Administration and Teaching. What? I grew up believing service was a female gene and low and behold I didn't have it?
As I thought about it, I realized it was the truth. When a death or tragedy happened in my church community, the LAST thing I thought to do was bring a casserole or write a kind note. Don't get me wrong. I'm not a total moron. If someone else organized it and gave me an assignment, I'll fix an entire meal. Left to my own devices, you would be lucky if I showed up for a visit. (Honestly, I was convinced I didn't know what to do and anything I attempted to do would be intruding. Pathetic, & clueless. Yep, I know it!)
As time passed, I resigned myself to my other giftedness, but decided as far as service was concerned, giftless-ness was NOT an excuse! I began to lean on my gift of encouragement to help me navigate through and help me understand how service was an act of worship. I didn't have to be amazing at it, (spiritually gifted), I just had to do it as a way to thank God for loving me. I became a Stephen's Minister and learned to be a care-giver. I started making hospital visits. I wrote notes and even delivered a few home cooked meals... when asked.
I knew if I made the acts uniquely mine, service would be a joy, not a burden. I began to mentally reframed my gifts of administration and teaching and realized training others to do what came naturally for me, was an act of service. It might not be as yummy as a dish of mac 'n cheese, but I was able to fuel other for ministry.
Now, after discovering my passion for my own brand of service, I find I'd rather serve than BE served. I love to train volunteers on great curriculum and teaching practices. Lots of times, I'd rather listen to someone share their passions for ministry or cry with another struggling with ministry challenges than eat or write - two of my fave things!
Granted, I KNOW I can't always be the one serving, so I've learned how to be served without embarrassment or discomfort. I can participate without being the leader or needing to be "behind the scenes". I still squirm a tad, but I know how good I feel when serving, so I check myself. I don't want to deprive others of the joy of serving. I want to share it!
So if you are like me, say "YES!" if asked to volunteer a portion of your time while at Kidmin 2012. You will be pleasingly surprised how God can use you in some amazing ways.
And if you are spiritually gifted in Service? Duh! We already know you'll say yes. I bet your waiting for that call!